“Grandmother’s Room” and Other Poems
By Faiz Ahmad
Changes
So you were saying,
my friend in limbo—
that you must now
give up the old ways
abandon the sweet
apocryphals of modernity
no more drugs
no more pleasures
no more speed
and then of your desire
for a hard life of service
to heal and to save
to breathe and to breathe
and I subtly suppress
the rising wave of that
old ludicrous doubt
which has plagued many
a prophets’ tribe, the urge
for cross examinations &
I persist in the courtesy
of believing, and you then
proceed to narrate that
particular cathartic event
and its long aftermath
which you describe as a
darkness not of hellish places
but akin to a womb’s inside.
Many years have passed since,
and I wonder and I wonder
how well, if at all, your eyes
may have accustomed to the
new light of the self-same world,
ever so treacherous as a friend
ever so interrogative as the soul.
Grandmother’s Room
Furnitured by stacks of tablets
and syrups, this wrinkled room
lets in morning sunlight creep
up to the bed, the exhaust fan
spinning noiselessly in your skull,
undoing you, memory by memory,
and I tiptoe to the bedside, tap
your shoulders lightly. Startled,
you snap, who? Faiz, I answer.
Who, you repeat. Faiz, I repeat
thrice, slowly. Oh, you reply.
Out of comprehension or out
of exasperation, who knows ?
And by the look on your face,
I wondered to myself, -
perhaps she loves us still, but
without our names.
But You Know Me, Don’t You?
Counting money may have its
charms, but no so for the turquoise
shirted cashier at the Union Bank,
for obvious reasons, who now ske-
daddles at lunch break towards the
neighbouring paan shop and asks for
a Gold-flake, to straighten his spine
he says to dry off his spit-moistened
fingertips he says, and then he lets the
vendor know, casually, that he would
pay for it the next day, has no change today
and the vendor smiles all rueful and
sheepish, like a man regularly betrayed
by circumstances, no debts please, they
never return, and our cashier rises up
from the bench like one of Joseph’s
nameless brothers, wears an expression
of mock disbelief, incredulously asks
But you know me, don’t you? But you know
me, don’t you? and his mouth agape,
bellowing grey smoke devils that push
his face further into the well of obscurity.
Faiz Ahmad is a recent graduate in Biological Sciences, IIT Madras, India. His work appears in Poetry Daily, Denver Quarterly, Bayou, Salamander, Poetry Northwest, and others.
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Jagdeep Raina is an interdisciplinary artist and writer from Guelph, Ontario, Canada. He holds a Masters degree from the Rhode Island School of Design and was a 2021 Paul Mellon Fellow at Yale University. Raina currently lives and works in Houston, Texas, USA
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